Going to crash a Diddy party in disguise....

A little taste of a song I am enjoying off the newest Weezer album:

You don't keep house and I'm a slob
You're freakin' out cause I can't keep a job
We don't update our blogs
We are Trainwrecks


This song just cracks me up because it describes how things have been going so far this year...and really, in the end, does any of it really matter, nope. So, who cares if our place is messy or I haven't been on blogger or tweeted....

I am really pumped to be turning 27 tomorrow. I spent this weekend feeling really peaceful and content. My job is tough, but rewarding. The reason I have been so stressed is completely my own fault. I am learning how to deal...learning how to stop this need to always please and to stop being so concerned that I am messing up. I have had a rough few months (and all of last year) because I have not let go of these things. I have tried to hold onto things so tightly and that just doesn't work. I need to wake up, do my best, and leave it at that. I know how hard I work and that's all I can do. I have tried to force things and have worried over things waaaaaaaay too much and it has not brought me much gain nor peace/happiness. If I get a bad observation, or upset someone, what is the worst that could happen? It sounds insane, but I have to think these kinds of things through. My worst fear is disappointing someone who cares about me/believes in. I have to start living my life and not be so afraid of these kinds of things.

I have been putting myself and the people close to me through craziness and I am just not going to do it anymore! This next year is going to rock!

Wow! I have had such a wonderful day today. I have been cleaning, organizing, went on a one mile run with Lena (i am trying to work back up to what I could once run), grocery shopping, Target shopping, and talked with my neighbor for a little bit. Although it sounds like a lot, I feel so relaxed and happy to have some order. Tom is out of town for the weekend on a guys only camping trip and while we are hardly ever a part, I was not looking forward to the alone time. NOW, I totally am! It is just so nice to have a clean house. I can't speak enough about this.

You might be wondering why I've included the above picture...well, it is a cleaner for hardwood floors that I bought and tried out today and I have to say, I AM IN LOVE!! It smells ABSOLUTELY AMAZING and you don't have to deal with a nasty bucket of water! You just squirt it and then mop it. simple.

Tonight my sister and I are going to see The Time Traveler's Wife and I am PUMPED! We both read the book and it is one of my favorites. I am also thrilled that Rachel McAdams is in it! I think she is great. AND to top that off, the whole story is set in Chicago, so that is pretty fun. Hope it's good...we'll see!

OK, well I need to eat something and shower before it's time to pick up my sis from the train.